i'm going to be leaving this blog dead

till the day i've decided to give you all of my time,

one post per day :)

byes.

Whatever is it.

didn't know there were so much hypocrites in this world.

shall not eleborate much.

it's my own problem,not yours.

so stay away from it.

and,far away!

Back on track.

MYE starts next week but i'm still not prepare for it.

I should kill myself.

I'm glad that we talked to each other just like before.

You know I know you know who.

I'm not going to hide anything from my close ones now.

They knew the truth and the truth wont change for the time being right?

I know what I want for now doesn't mean it will not change.

And for the sake of somebody,I bet I won't fal back on him anymore.

That's the other him >=

Byes.

To say is harder than doing it.

BORED is what i can say now.

Going out with wz ltr.

Bet we will talk more then doing homework. :)

I think my first use of new cam is really a disaster!

Luckily,some of them were really nice :)

They said,practice made perfect :)

My mood now is much more better then previous days.

So ppl,come talk to me! But don't irritate me:)

Class photos are out! & i loved it :)

I'll try to.

Weeks have passed by but why am i still stuck in that situation?

I really tried to make promises to myself but just can't fulfill it.

Trying my best to get myself out of it.

But whenever i listened songs that consist of my feelings,

I just cant stop thinking about it.

Maybe,I'll try to change back to my old self.

The one that you ppl knew since sec 1 to 4.

I know I must depend on myself now.

I'm still trying to,so please endure with me.

i will continue to...

i will try and listen to friends advices from now on.

it may not be right all the time

but at least they cared about me :)

getting sick easily this year,dunno what's wrong with me.

Is it the weather? Or is it me??? :/

And finally,i let one of my worries out of my heart alr.

I should be happy but i'm not.

I think i've let my friends down.

Should not put my anger on them.

SRY FRENS. :)

Should I?

What if i tell you the truth?

What if i say that i liked you alot?

will you accept it?

or just treat it that i've never said before?

What if i told you that you were the person that i've always trusted in

but things have changed now. Isn't it?

Can you bear with the truth?

What if i tell you that i've always treated you more than just a best friend

However,things have changed now

& i no longer trust you

i dont want to be your friend anymore?

Can you ppl handle the truth???

just back to say that,

PY! SORRY FOR TEACHING YOU THE WRONG THINGS :(

Going MIA.

Back soon.

Bye ppl.

Sushi Please!

week and days passes so quickly.

last week,this time,i'm still worried and sad over somethings.

but now,i felt unwell,must talk softly and i dun like it man! shitsss.

four tests in a day is not a good experience :(

there's still maths test tmr. wonder if i'm going for it.

However,the usuals are going for sushi tmr! lols.

happies!

just hope that my ulcer wont be that painful.

looking forward to tmr.

bbs.

Forever & Always.

School days have been tiring.

It's soon weekend again.

nothing much happened except for...

one week have passed.

we've become strangers.

i don't like that feeling.

you know i cherished you the most just like a family member.

(i bet you would not know. forever.)

Now,it's just like a family member passed on and i've to slowly accept it

when i know i can't,when i know you're still in presence.

can i get back into the reality or just wait for you to talk to me?

i've tried.

i'm not that kind of girl who will wait for another person to talk back.

Maybe,this blog will be the one who will accompany me and hear my stuffs out.

I feel like i'm in the ninth circle,just waiting to get into the tenth.

you're just another picture to burn.

spent lots of money for school/studies.

spent lots of money for cny.

spent lots of money on tuition.

spent cny in malaysia just like the past 16 years.

spent my time crying on useless things.

How i wish, i can spend laughters almost everyday.

spend my time with firends during cny.

spend my time bathing and not rush to school everyday.

spend all the money that i want on useless stuffs

spend my everyday,every minutes and every seconds with my loved ones.

and not spend my time on stupid,useless,irritating stuffs that made ppl go haywire?

can somebody spend his/her time to grant me all this wishes?

please and thank you...

feeling moody nowadays.

but when ppl asked me,i just answered them no.

Today,found out a_truth.

You said i have change in all ways.

you said i've become short tempered just because i shouted at you for a STUPID duty roster and ignored me for the pass 2 days.

i thought you knew that i'm a kind of person that takes responsibility vry heavily

even though ppl did not ask me to.

i thought that you were my bestest friend and will tell me every truth,mistakes and changes i've made.

But,you didnt, you just kept me in the dark.

I've forgave your blurness and everything that you made me angry with.

Why cant you???

Hope that this four days will make us reflect and be bestest friend again.

or,just friends.

But, i want you to know that i've always treated you as my best friend even if you ignore me.

Another week have passed.

My new phone's one week old.

But still cant figure out how to use.

School is boring and stressed.

Dont know what to do during free lessons.

Lots of homework everyday.

Test every alternate day or even the next day.

Tuition homework.

TIRED.

Studying the whole day/week,except for weekends.

Hate choir,why is it have to be on saturdays?!

Hate her!

Cant decide on things!

Confused!

Someone tell me what to do?!

PLEASE!

super bored now,start doing compo at nine.

SIAN!

lots of things had happened,one by one it will be solve right? :(

gtg,bb.

The first week of sch have ended.

Now,i feel how difficult it's to be a chairman of a big sized class.

i miss the class that have only 26 crazy ppl! lols

i miss the quiet times,the times that i stayed in class for mt with the others,

and the laughters in 4g.

i'm so not used to be in a class of 36. -.-

but,i love my co-form :)

Sch uniform is going to change next week,name tags and time table have changed too,

almost everything have changed.

I've a thought of going to SP since going to it's open house just now. Or maybe NP?

Going to study super hard for this year,it's our last stretch,i'm not going to give up half way now even if my results really sucks.

Maybe,no more shopping or going out with friends for fun after term 1? & only for studies.

I know 2010 is going to be a difficult and different year ahead so,i'm going to get use to it at least for the next 7 to 8 months,but i'm not going to give up. you all too! :)

Sometimes,i'll think that i'm such a irritating person that irritates almost everybody,especially you. Sorry for treating you like a spare tire and only msged you when i'm boring and for not talking to you in class.

i think you know who you are if you read this but i know you nvr. We'll still be friends right? :/

My primary school's vision: Strive For The Best!!! :)

P.S wont be blogging so often as i always do.